From better, younger days |
I keep thinking back to a conversation I had some years ago with someone at work who was going through a rough patch in her marriage. I remember telling her in such earnestness that I felt that marriage had outlived its original purpose. The practical reason for the convention, which had served our ancestors well during times when life was a manual struggle that took two people working constantly to try and manage, is long gone. Women can earn their own living, go where they want, do what they want and hire contractors to help do what they can't. None of us, male or female, I argued, needed another person to make them or allow them to be a whole person. I was arguing my point because I wasn't fond of her husband and was passively urging her to leave him. But more than that really was the fact that I believed what I was saying. Now I think back on that and wonder if I was right. Not that I'm sure that I'm wrong either. I'm admittedly confused.
Now I wonder if marriage persists into the 21st century because we somehow know in our heart of hearts that it's not so much about the physical labor any longer, but the emotional tolls that are better shared by two than born by one. That and the fact that with the cost of living, it takes two incomes to keep a roof over one's head. One that doesn't leak or grow moss anyway.
There is a lot of brain damage that comes with marriage. It's hard. But is it better than the alternative? Is the very fact that there is someone to share the blame with when you make a bad choice of contractors worth fighting over how many hours of hockey at night is going to be on the main television versus how many hours of endless droning on MSNBC? What is the worth of having someone there to hold you when you make the fateful decision that one of your loyal dogs shouldn't suffer any more? Does it outweigh the ability to say, "Screw it, I'm going to that Sunday night playoff game!" and not have someone there to guilt you out of it.
I'm not sure about any of it. That's life I guess. Do any of us really have the answers to most things? I don't actually think so. We sort of lumber on day by day and figure it all out as we go. All I know for sure is I have such a respect, like never before, for all the single people I know. You have earned that coveted singular possession of the remote control. Use it wisely.
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